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I wish I just went for it instead of choosing to do another thing. I felt like what happened was such a wasted opportunity. I initially wanted to be a part of a specific org, and I had a specific position in mind for it. When it was election day, I was elected for a position I had the year before but I rejected it because I wanted a different position. Turns out, the position I wanted was removed and it was somehow given to the position I rejected, I REGRET NOT STANDING UP AT THE TIME BECAUSE THAT WAS ALL I HAD TO DO. I should've just taken it instead of taking a blind turn. I am now haunted by my stupidity and it keeps going to my mind and I can't stop thinking about it no matter how much I try to. It bothers me so much, because there is now a lot of opportunity I am not going to get because I wasn't able to get what I wanted. And I never wanted to be in this position. I only wanted to get the other thing but now I can't because my friend is the elected officer for that position and I cant change this anymore not unless some miracle happens

Can I little go home right now, I just wanted to hug someone that i missed so much rightnow, then and I can come back again here

I regret taking her with me I always feel like I torned their once a happy family