
"Dopo una vita passata a soccombere a mio padre, mi pento di non avergli detto quanto mi ha fatto male, quando ancora potevo farlo. Lui stava morendo di cancro, e io non riuscivo a fare altro che pensare a quanto non riuscissi a stargli emotivamente vicino, perché offuscata dalla rabbia. Il senso di sacrificio a cui mi ha abituata fin da piccola mi ha fatto essere lì col corpo, e sentire in colpa dopo, come se non fossi stata una buona figlia. Da quando se ne è andato, tutto il dolore è rimasto a me. Che me ne faccio, però?"
Sembra che tu abbia ancora un sacco di sentimenti contrastanti dentro di te, e che non sia facile per te elaborare il dolore e la rabbia.
Life is a complex tapestry of moments, and sometimes we must accept that our actions, though imperfect, were guided by the best intentions we had at the time.
ความผิดหวังที่น่าหวาดกลัวที่สุดมักจะไม่ใช่คำพูดที่เราหยุดชะงักในความโกรธ แต่เป็นคำพูดที่เรากินกลับไปในความกลัว
ความเสียใจมักถูกมองว่าเป็นอารมณ์ที่ลบ แต่จิตวิทยาเชื่อว่ามันอาจเป็นเครื่องมือที่ทรงพลังที่สุดสำหรับการเติบโตส่วนบุคคล

"wish u was back alive homie rest easy my nga 🕊️🕊️ fly high daquan"
It's clear you're still thinking about him and missing him a lot.

".was loving you a sin?hey...i know i hurt you by that sudden break up..i know and im sorry.i saw you cry,i saw you loosing yourself..im sorry.but what could i have done?my family found out about us, they took control over my socials.and they made me break up.they were at school too....how was i supposed to tell you?how could i tell you i was forced?is loving someone from other religion a taboo?why....and worst of all i had to watch you fall apart because of me.im sorry .i hope you will find someone who will be with you.a girl who can be with you my dear! im sorry ...."
Parece que te sientes culpable por amar a alguien a pesar de las circunstancias. Es comprensible sentirte así.