"I regret putting my all constantly knowing i won’t receive nothing back"

"我想说的有点多 高一高二我没认真学习 我喜欢我的一个学弟朋友 我们都是男生 他把我当朋友 我把他当情人 我还意淫过他 我有时候和我的朋友起矛盾 今天我顶撞了班主任 我骗了家人 我没有好好学习"

"I am young and so I don't know much about love but I feel like I genuinely love this guy and I confessed but he didn't like me back. this acually brought us closer and I think I am in love. nobody else has ever made me feel anything since him it been more than a year and I feel empty without him. I love him so much and it hurts so bad knowing that I can never be with him. but id rather that than never be able to see him again."